shedding skin
I wish there was a neater way, like LJ cuts. But well, I'll stick dividers here instead.// The horoscopeHome and Family On October 26th, Jupiter, blahblahblah... For others, there may be a relocation, one that could take you overseas. Some will find that housing conditions improve or change dramatically. Family or emotional matters may be linked with overseas connections or travel. Some may find that people of status, such as foreign visitors, academics or professional people become part of domestic life. There may be intensity in their demeanour or experience. You may be driven by a strong desire to know more or to do more with your life.There may be strong feelings or a high emotional state at the home. Sexuality and your sex life could be powerful issues. For some, there will simply be a ‘larger than life' feel to the goings on in the domicile. You may have to make powerful or determining decisions about emotional or domestic life. These may mark the end of cycle. Good fortune may come from proper attention to domestic matters. At times, the atmosphere will be charged and there could be strong words and high emotion.Lady MoonChange is written here and you may choose to separate from something or someone. Or vice-versa, someone or something may break from your company. There may be an end to an important life cycle. This may concern where you're headed and help to leave an unwelcome influence behind. There may be family connections involved in this.// well. eerily enough, since my family consists of my guardians for most part, this is coming true. And even more eerily, one of my guardian's is a Leo too.It's all very well to say that one twelfth of the world is experiencing the same sea change, but hell, this is eerie. Not only am I travelling this year, I'm also moving into a NEW house. As in, brand spanking new. the intelligencia have always been at my door, since my dad's friends are all professors and surgeons and whatnot. People have been promising to visit me back home, and I'm travelling big time for various weddings. as for the change and seperation. That's where my guardians come in. I guess they've decided to distance themselves emotionally from me for quite some time now, and it's all been my fault, but I guess I'm coming to terms with it now.I'll forever be indebted to them but perhaps it's time to realise that I can't be guilty and feeling responsible for everything about everyone all the time, and that both sides have a part to play. It's something I've yet to master, but perhaps this is a start.I love them, but this honestly isn't healthy and well, I am leaving in4 months. and if they've made the cut, perhaps I should just learn to accept it, especially since it's my fault.They'll always be special to me...but history is always there. They may have given me my lifeline, turned my life around, nurtured me, and saved my life but it's precisely because they did that that it hurt them all the more, and they have the power to hurt me that much and make me feel so delibitatingly guilty. Me who has built such inpenetrable walls.Growing up with 3 Forces Of Nature has taught me to simply accept if nothing else. Thanks once again. I hope you never read this.
love
1.are u serious when it comes to relationships?
*ponders* well, that depends on your definition of relationship
2. are you afraid of commitments?
Unfortunately so. Unless someone really special comes along.
3. are u a risk taker?
Sometimes
4. wat can u say abt. long distance relationships?
OWOWOWOWOW. you need to be in a really stable relationship to make this one work. and even then it's tough.
5. can u luv a person who doesnt love u?
Unfortunately so.
6. do actions speak louder than words?
Yeah.
7. hav u felt/found true love?
HA. well, I don't know about "true". I don't think I'll ever find someone quite like him again, but then again, I don't think I'll find anyone quite like anyone I've ever dated.
8. how can u say that a person luvs you?
when they tell me so, and mean it.
9. are you good in handling relationships?
NO. I'm *terrible* at it. All kinds, not just the dating kind.
10. willing to give everything?
definition of everything please. I'll say I'm a giver more than a taker.
11. best thing u've learned from loving?
hmmm. I've learnt many things.
12. do u demand ur luv1 to change intosomeone else?
no. definitely NOT.
13. wud u let go of some1 u love?
Yes. In actions if not in heart.
14. are u a one woman man & vice versa type of person?
HAHAHAHHAHAHA. well, when I do fall, yes I am. However, I almost never fall. When I do, it's into an abyss.
15. is sex important in a relationship?
I think so.
16. how do u express ur luv to sm1?
I don't. refer to "terrible at relationships".
17. wat is the major reason of a break up?
mmm. infidelity, diverging personalities/interests/goals.
18. most important ingredient/s in arelationship?
trust, love, communication.
19. ever regret loving someone?
No.
20. one thing u hate about love?
That it turns me into the most uncharacteristic insipid FOOL ever,
21. one thing u like about love?
love.
22. worst thing u did to a loved one?
hurt them in the worst ways possible.
23.are you in love?
I'd like to pretend I'm not.
24. do u have a bf/gf?
no.
25. why?
because I don't. Again. Refer to "terrible at relationships"
26. are you a hopeless romantic?
not really. or that's what I claim anyway. Until I fall in love.
27. do you get tired of loving ?
yes. yes, I do.
28. who has changed your view about loving?
many people have. friends and significant others.
*sniffle*
*wheeze* *cough* *looks pathetic*
*wheezes some more*
bleargh.
times like this, I wish I had a magic soup teleporter.
Of course, I could simply twist someone's arm and get soup made for me, which is almost as good.
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hmmmmm........
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NAH.
sick, and annoyed
GAH GAH GAH.
watchyu lookin' at?
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learning
apparently I learn through listening and kinesthetics.
I am such a freak considering 76% of the world learn through visuals. HA!
Auditory People (Hearing/Speaking People) are characterized by habits like:
• Not making eye contact while thinking, generally looking from side to side;• Frequently correcting grammar, spelling, word choice or pronunciation of others;• Remembering exactly how a thing was said and reminding others what they said;• Making use of puns, metaphors and playing word games.and are proficient in hearing language: For example : listen, talk, sounds, converse, rhythm, tempo, hear, rings true, resonates, etc.
Kinesthetic People (Feeling People) are characterized by habits like:
• Looking down when responding to a question;• Focusing on comfort of dress more than style;• Having a visually messy desk that actually has some order to it;• Making decisions only when they ‘feel right.’and are proficient in feeling language: For example: connect, in touch, handle, digest, walk through, fit, move through, sleep on, hot, cold, etc.
Visual People (Seeing People) are characterized by habits like:
• Making good eye contact in conversation but often looking up when recalling information;• Frequently using visual representations to convey information;• Not standing too closely (because it is important to see the person they are speaking to);• Making and posting checklists and checking off completed items.and are proficient in picture language; For example: see, picture, observe, view, panoramic, clear, black and white, look, map, etc.
I have a craving for
yam duck.
oily, yammy, smelly duck.
ow ow ow
period's here. it hurts like hell.
I don't have cramps though. Just loads of bloating, and it's actually the bloating that's causing the pain and the occassional stabbing pain of the air moving around. It's pretty darn crap.
GUYS CAN KINDLY TUNE OFF HERE IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT TAMPONS
Actually, what really hurts like hell is non-applicator tampons. I mean wtf. how the hell do people shove strange foreign objects up themselves anyway? let alone rough foreign objects?????
Applicators are the only way to go.
Oh yeah. Happy Chinese New Year
buggered
I swear I'm having PMS despite the fact that I think this will be my 2nd 3-week-cycle in a row. I think.
I'm SO tired, perhaps it's from working too much too.
But also, I'm moody, I'm hungry, and I'm more and more convinced that I'm roughly the size of a barge
I must be in a music mood
I forgot to mention one more song.
David Tao's Blue Moon.
I recently rediscovered it and it blew me away again. Or rather, it didn't so much blow me away as pull the carpet from under my feet. By rolling it in inch by inch.
Talented talented man.
it's all alaia's fault!
I am going to lose all my music cred for this one. But when I said I listen to everything except metal, I meant I listen to everything except metal.
In decent company, I'll never admit to even knowing who Britney is. Britney? Britney WHO?
however, due to
alaia's rabid fandom, I do know who she is.
I personally don't find her all that pretty, although she makes up for it in sex appeal. I think she's wears too much
eyeliner. I think that her songs are ok.
Actually, I think her songs are pure evil. They're ok sonically. Some might even call it aural torture.
But you know what. WE ALL KNOW HER SONGS.
FILL IN THE BLANKS:
Hit me Baby, ___________ time
I'm a ______________ for you
Don't let me be the _______ to know
disturbing? yes. blame the mainstream media all you like, it's in your head nevertheless.
What I will admit to however, is that her videos are state of the art and excellently directed.
and in her newest one, I must say she's pretty much (oops!) done it again.
black undies and a mini faux-fur white jacket?
hotness.
this will rank No. 3 after Slave for You and Everytime. *nods*
to further degrade myself, I'd like to add that Dare You To Move by Switchfoot really gets to me. Why? I don't know.
so, like, it's, like, the worst rain in history!
yeah. and I was out pub crawling.
apparently the worst rainfall on record happened 2 days ago. Then it was soundly beaten by last night's little spectacular. (48h of non-stop rain)
120mm of rain, snow in the middle of summer, 12m waves, fallen trees, cut power lines, disruption of public transport. mmmmmm......disaster.
To think that less than 2 hours before the rain started, it was 36 degrees.
nowadays, I don't feel guilty about wasting good blog space on meaningless shit quizzes
ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with?
the OJ guy. Definitely.
2. What is your weapon of choice?
wit, sarcasm and a whole lot of charm. If all else fails, chopsticks. Or the kitchen knife.
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
would I? oh yes I would.
4. How about of the same sex?
well, that depends.
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
my mother. or maybe my guardian
6. What is your pet peeve?
Oh, I have many pets. I have lots of room in my soul.
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
I usually let them go.
SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you have not done in a long time?
clean this place.
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?
at a stretch? 12pm.
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't:
Kat, Manika, YL
4. What is the last lame excuse you made?
"now?"
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through?
YES. it was one of those 50 degree sauna nights. (refer to xanga)
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in?
yesterday
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?
ZERO. BWAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH
GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
cocktails.
2. Meat eaters:
I like the occasional beef. medium rare on the rare side.
3. Do you eat the skin of off chicken?
only if it's KFC. I hate skin.
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?
Slim fast. It made me grow fatter.
5. Do you have an issue with your weight?
Yes I do. In fact on bad days, I'm literally body dismorphic, have been known to suffer anxiety and panic attacks, and have been anorexic before.
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?
Spicy. Spicy and sour is my absolute fave. If you make it hot enough to blow my brains out, I'll love you to bits. Spicy means having me snivelling and weeping on the floor.
7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, lunch?
child. although I wouldn't EAT them.
LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?
erm. 3. I think.
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)?
Zero.
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?
*bites lip*
4. Have you "done it"?
You mean had SEX? Does the word SEX discomfit you? Oh poor baby.
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?
erm, arm veins.
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?
No but I've been propositioned by people who thought a I was a prostitute before! (long story)
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?
No.
GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own?
0
2. What's your guilty pleasure store?
ooohhhhhhh, well i don't think I should mention THEM
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?
donate a bit, save the rest
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous?
famous.
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?
NO NO NO NO NO. ABSOLUTELY NOT.
6. Have you ever stolen anything?
when I was 3 and I didn't know the meaning of the word steal. I knew stealing was BAD. I didn't know WHY.
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?
eh. meh.
PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of?
nothing. Isn't that sad?
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?
graduated. They never thought they'd see the day
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?
Make a record.
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?
Only if I care about it. If you're talking about coming 2nd in a bra-strap-changing contest then nah.
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?
Yes. I think. I can't remember these things.
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?
I'm from the Singapore education system. Of course I have.
7. What did you do today that you're proud of?
I went to work, and I made GOOD COFFEE. My coffee's aren't fugly anymore! and I mean, they're actually GOOD, QUALITY COFFEES.
ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
uh. An unlocked NEW 3G phone.
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?
I don't know what that is.
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?
er, I don't know. Me if I'd made different life choices???
4. Have you ever been cheated on?
No. Thankfully.
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
I have an issue with my looks. So yes.
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
emotional openess? Is that inborn?
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey?
HELL NO!
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin?
Gluttony. MMMMM FOOOD.
swiss holiday fallout
The people on xanga heard about me and my pathetic attempt at an essay over my swiss holiday. What with typing on a German keyboard (Zs and Ys swapping places, funny dots, swirls and lines over my As and Us - yes yes I know there's a technical name for it. Tell me if you know) and whatnot.
I've been
So Deathly Afraid of checking my results I've procrastinated and the one time I checked (it wasn't out yet) I took to peeping at it from behind my fingers. I was half relieved and half annoyed that my torture hadn't ended yet.
So I turned up today at uni and the lovely Admins Babe checked it for me while I averted my eyes, and rifled my way through the stack of essays.
Please, please, please. I'm looking for a P. Just as Pass.
I find it and gingerly flip it open to find 2 post-it notes full of miniscule handwriting...and my mark.
I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WITH AN HD
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was only 3 marks short of a high distinction overall.
I was SO RELIEVED I nearly hugged the computer and Admins Babe.
Apparently despite my crazy 24h turnaround overnighter in Singapore and a 5 hour stint in a swiss internet cafe on a German keyboard with no english spellcheck in sight, I'd somehow managed to pull an HD out of NOWHERE. (or my ass, depending on which way you look at it)
GAWD. I AM SO RELIEVED.
