shedding skin
I wish there was a neater way, like LJ cuts. But well, I'll stick dividers here instead.// The horoscope
Home and Family
On October 26th, Jupiter, blahblahblah... For others, there may be a relocation, one that could take you overseas. Some will find that housing conditions improve or change dramatically. Family or emotional matters may be linked with overseas connections or travel. Some may find that people of status, such as foreign visitors, academics or professional people become part of domestic life. There may be intensity in their demeanour or experience. You may be driven by a strong desire to know more or to do more with your life.There may be strong feelings or a high emotional state at the home. Sexuality and your sex life could be powerful issues. For some, there will simply be a ‘larger than life' feel to the goings on in the domicile. You may have to make powerful or determining decisions about emotional or domestic life. These may mark the end of cycle. Good fortune may come from proper attention to domestic matters. At times, the atmosphere will be charged and there could be strong words and high emotion.
Lady Moon
Change is written here and you may choose to separate from something or someone. Or vice-versa, someone or something may break from your company. There may be an end to an important life cycle. This may concern where you're headed and help to leave an unwelcome influence behind. There may be family connections involved in this.
// well.
eerily enough, since my family consists of my guardians for most part, this is coming true. And even more eerily, one of my guardian's is a Leo too.
It's all very well to say that one twelfth of the world is experiencing the same sea change, but hell, this is eerie.
Not only am I travelling this year, I'm also moving into a NEW house. As in, brand spanking new. the intelligencia have always been at my door, since my dad's friends are all professors and surgeons and whatnot. People have been promising to visit me back home, and I'm travelling big time for various weddings.
as for the change and seperation. That's where my guardians come in. I guess they've decided to distance themselves emotionally from me for quite some time now, and it's all been my fault, but I guess I'm coming to terms with it now.
I'll forever be indebted to them but perhaps it's time to realise that I can't be guilty and feeling responsible for everything about everyone all the time, and that both sides have a part to play. It's something I've yet to master, but perhaps this is a start.
I love them, but this honestly isn't healthy and well, I am leaving in4 months. and if they've made the cut, perhaps I should just learn to accept it, especially since it's my fault.
They'll always be special to me...but history is always there. They may have given me my lifeline, turned my life around, nurtured me, and saved my life but it's precisely because they did that that it hurt them all the more, and they have the power to hurt me that much and make me feel so delibitatingly guilty. Me who has built such inpenetrable walls.
Growing up with 3 Forces Of Nature has taught me to simply accept if nothing else.
Thanks once again. I hope you never read this.
posted by sway @ 11:22 PM
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